~PhatScurl

and here it is...not dead yet. Finished my projects...hung with my girlfriend...i have water

Figured id just put that out there. No sketch of the day today, i've just spent the last 2 and half hours working on a collage that is not even half way done, i had an incredibly unproductive weekend (my ass scratched come tomorrow.

Let's check my list to see if i even got anything on it finished

Spanish HW...nope
History Project....haha NOPE
2 painting projects...meh
printmaking...at least i did some work on it
72 pages in Slaughterhouse...well at least ill get that done

it was great today because my history project involves interviewing somebody who experienced the great depression, and my history teacher is a DICK, and wants it video taped. My grandparents live several states away, so let the awkward situations begin. We intended on going to a retirement home near my school, only to realize that my teacher (and this is not a joke) heavily implied that we sneak past the guards and illegally trespass into the building...fuck my history teacher, i didn't feel like being arrested for his damn project. So i just gave up and said fuck it, im just gonna call my grandparents and record the conversation on my computer. And that's what im gonna do tomorrow, or tuesday, whenever my life decides to stop sucking ass!


so yeah, im worn out, and need to chill so no drawing today. good gosh im hungry

yea so...if you've read my last journal entry...wow...was i that whiney of a little bitch. Good gosh.

So yeah went through a few rough months then, i was in over my head on a bunch of stupid social problems that i honestly don't remember how i got into. I was missing a lot of my friends, and was having a bit of an identity crisis.

But now I'm back! Once again i am sporting my short haircut, not putting up with bullshit, and chilling to The Vines. Plus, what do you know, TWO years of being away, having tasted the fruit but pushed away from it, i have a girlfriend. We've been going out for over 3 months now, and its going great, i love the girl.

So why am i posting this, every time i say im coming back i put up one or two pictures and then leave again. Well, im gonna try something new now. I'm going to start putting up my sketch of the day. Everyday ill upload a picture from my sketch book (thumbnails, homework sketches, doodles, etc.) and tell you what's going on with it.

Hopefully, i get back into the habit of updating my page, and eventually start putting up some finished work.!


Okay so, let's give this a shot!

Now, anybody who has spent any time with me, probably knows im not one to mope around, but im really feeling neglected right now.

The people i want to be friends with here are off doing their own thing usually which really sucks. But even worse the people who want to hang out with me, JUST WANNA COMPLAIN ABOUT THEIR PROBLEMS. I don't wanna hear other peoples problems, especially when none of them have any real problems.

IM NOT FUCKING DOCTOR PHIL, I DON'T GIVE A SHIT!

Honestly, i'd really like somebody who wants to listen to me. Just one little conversation, to know that i have one friend here who has my back.

I was a real jackass at my old school, and i still made some amazing friends. Friends i care about, and friends who care about me.

I don't want to be that jackass, why is it when i finally find a place that im happy, i have no body to be really happy with.

I miss my old school, Tae Kwon Do, and most of all my friends.

i can't wait for Thanksgiving break

yea seriously, its been one year today since i last updated this journal.

damn

i mean seriously


DAMN

What's happened in the past year?

I'm now 16, i don't have a shaved head anymore (but by thanksgiving this will have changed). I'm right now attending the Governor's School for the Arts and Humanities. Yeah, if you've been reading my drawing entries, i had a rough time deciding to come here, but i don't regret it at all, it truly is an amazing school (plus, it's a boarding school, so i got to move out, YAYS!!).

Until i came here, i didn't realize how stubborn i was being with my art. The simple fact that i rarely moved past pencil and paper, has put me at a huge disadvantage here. I'm just now getting my fingers wet in so many other mediums, only to realize how much fun they are. My teachers have basically told me my art is less than wonderful, but i have a passion for what im doing, so im managing B's in the classes.

While all this is going on, i made some great friends and am now managing to have a life. YEA, ME HAVING A LIFE...ITS AMAZING. But with great life, comes great loads of shit, as i have learned. Within weeks into the school year im up to my neck in social bullshit, i don't care about.

At first i tried to be friends with everybody, never choosing a side, expressing my opinion ONLY when asked to do so. Well, on the one side is a guy who does the wise thing and fights the battle alone, he never really asked my opinion, while on the other is a girl who goes about any means to get people on her side (usually backfiring) but she consistently asked for my opinion (which she either blatantly ignored, or twisted and used to her own advantage), thus making me look like i was siding with her.

In truth, i enjoyed the company of both parties, and i refused to choose any real sides. But the more i hung out with the girl, the more i saw how much of a spoiled selfish brat she was. I tolerated this for as long as i could, but it just got to the point where i couldn't take it anymore.

nothing she says ever sounds real, almost always is contradictory to something she previously says, almost always about her, causes problems and expects other people to fix it, and the final straw, manipulates events to make her the victim to gain the sympathy of my friends and even myself.

A couple of us have caught on, have since chosen to ignore her (both classes and life have become so much easier since).

Now back in the world that actually matters, i had no A's on my report card, innumerable B's, and like 3 C's on my report card, and so i must go about fixing this so i might again at some point restore my 4.0 GPA.

I've also become addicted to The Vines and Alter Bridge (GREATEST BAND EVER). I've discovered im a conservative libertarian at a liberal art school. I've gotten my room mate addicted to Star Wars: Battlefront II. I STILL can't play guitar. I've got a lot reading to, got an essay right, going to see a play with a girl i like tomorrow (its supposed to be really sad, like i've seen several guys coming out of it balling), and i also have to make my room not look like shit.

also i've seen a couple of thev performances here, and they were quite good. The music department is quite impressive, and i've learned that ballet defies all understanding of the human structure (i was either in awe or cringing at some of the things these people were doing.). Can't say i liked the ballet performance, but i was certainly wasn't unentertained, i just don't know what to look for in a good ballet.

So yeah, that's it for now. Im gonna try to update more often from now on, if you don't see an update, drop me a message and remind me. Thanks